August Monthly 2024

 It's time.... for the first special monthly post!!! Yay!!

This month has overall been average and a lot less horrible and heartbreaking than last year's August, kinda. Mostly. My home life has remained the same as it has been for the entire year: awful for a lot of the days. But, to cope, I have drawn copious (lol) amounts of Johndave that it could legally be considered lethal. Those drawings will be shown later in the post.

I started the month off by applying to community college, however because I applied so late and I have no idea what I'm doing, I was unable to get any appointments and decided fuck it, I'm waiting til spring to start school. My major is psychology, because the art industry is legitimately going so down the shitter that it ain't coming back up. Character designing and drawing will remain my hobby. 

I've been seeing a lot of 'hopecore' posts on Instagram lately, which have genuinely kept my spirits up higher than they would be normally, considering how mentally ill and unmedicated I am in my environment. It's put a bounce in my step and made me generally a little more hopeful for my future than not, I'm more okay with things being the way they are and good things will happen to me naturally. Of course, I've seen an equal amount of posts of breakup-related or just doomed love sort of aesthetics, if you can even call it that, which put small tears into my eyes each time I read them. But I'm still trying to remember those hopeful ones instead of the shitty reminders. 

Speaking of doomed love:

I started crushing on someone "new", I say new in quotes because I already crushed on them last year. It's not going to go anywhere, naturally, as is how queer relationships tend to go especially if they don't even know they're queer. But, that's okay, I'm coping at lot better these days instead of just being like omg I can't do it this sucks. Obviously it still sucks, but I know better now and it's easier to let myself off the hook. Also, since I have crush-themed playlists cause I'm a fucking dork, I have 122 songs in there so far. Is that too little? Hehe. Compared to some of my other ones, it's actually pretty average.

Speaking of sooongs....

Monthly favorite song:

I Bet On Losing Dogs - Mitski

Honorable mentions:

21st Century Monster - Aviators, I'll Look Good When I'm Sober - Lovejoy, Noobz 4 Leif - JT Music

This song is actually in the previously mentioned crush playlist, because it hits so hard for me as an openly gay person who is actively crushing on someone who is most likely straight. It's knowing you're losing but keep doing what you're doing because it feels good to love them, despite the fact you'll never be with them. It also hurts because you're the only person you know who loves them. At least that's how I interpret the song. Mitski is a very good songwriter and it was hard to choose either this or Nobody. I would definitely recommend her if you don't listen to her music already.

This month's drawings:

 (8/1)

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(8/6)

This is definitely one of my all-time favorite pieces that I've done, it doubles as a vent and angst artwork. I utilized a different shading process as well as overlays (you could probably say I used too many tbh). It evokes the feeling of being in love with someone, thinking they're your soulmate, but they turn around and date someone opposite to your gender because that's who they were pressured to date, and your love interest stops liking you entirely. Umm... haha anyways! Johndave angst!

(8/7)

John is NOT a kissboy.

(8/10)

One of my least favorite drawings this month.

(8/14)

Another double vent/angst artwork. I'm obsessed with my headcanon of Dave's home life being absolute shit (more than canon), with Bro being a violent alcoholic and Dave having to sneak around after hours just to get a snack as to not stir his drunken brother. Thus, this drawing. I say vent because of my mother's old and new drunk habits, but she used to be a lot worse with persuading me to get her her drinks like Bro does in this piece, it is a lot more exaggerated here than it was in reality. In this piece, Bro has drunk multiple beers and whiskey bottles, shaking a near-empty beer can while creepily slurring Dave's name, another direct reference to my own life events.

(8/16)

(8/17)

Utilized contrasting color palettes for this one, which was fun to do. Just a sad Dave headcanon-y thing here this time, no vents included. In this drawing, context is Dave told Bro that he thinks he likes boys, and Bro being a homophobic POS, starts hunting Dave to "strife with" him.

(8/19)

This was the drawing in my first ever post, but I will include more information about it here. The text comes from Sinisterrrrrrrr by Renard, I'm unsure where it exactly originally comes from but I think it's from an older game. This is supposed to be centering around the hate aspect of John and Davesprite's relationship stemming from canon, but it serves as a vent as well with a backstory I shall not explain yet. It's still sensitive and I'm still trying to work through it myself, but once I do, maybe I'll feel ready to share it someday.

(8/20)

"the alternate happy ending"

CONTENT WARNING: UNDERAGE DRINKING

 (8/21)

(8/21)

New fursona.

 

(8/22)

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(8/28)

Another vent drawing regarding the crush I mentioned earlier in the post, with them representing John and me representing Davesprite, obviously.

(8/29)

Tried to somewhat replicate Calliope's canon artstyle with this one but also wanted to try something new. From left to right top to bottom, the words behind everyone says: favorite beta kid, favorite alpha kid, favorite beta troll, looks most like you, dream moon, highest kin, favorite ship, favorite design, favorite alpha troll

(8/31 [today])

I saw a gif of someone petting a crow's breast and the crow was very happy, it reminded me of how Davesprite would totally suppress his crow side but it instinctively comes out when he gets pet or touched.

...And that's all for this monthly post. Thank you for reading my silly words and looking at my art if you did, I really appreciate it. I welcome chilly September with warm, open arms, and hope it has better things for me than August did.